Where I Dreamed No. II

THE SEQUEL: MY ADVANCED II EXAMINATION

****Warning… this is a very long read, so go grab a snack and a drink, get cozy, and please enjoy!

P.S. If you don’t want to read this long post (because I do realize that people do have better things to do), scroll all the way down for the Vlog!

So, I took my Advanced II exam nearly a week ago. Honestly speaking, it was one of the most exciting, disappointing, fun, interesting, and aggravating experiences I’ve had in dance.

Starting from the beginning, I walked in confidently. The examiner was so kind and so sweet, and the pianist who played for me was the pianist I had from my graded exams! (Intermediate Foundation and the levels after are called vocational exams) I love my pianist… she’s one of the nicest, fiercest, determined person I know. Having her there in my exam was an honor and a gift.

Barre was good. I kept it simple and as my teachers advised, I didn’t over-decorate the movements. I added bits of personality when I felt the music speak to me.

Center Work was also very good and quite honestly went better than I expected it to go. I tried interacting with the examiner, inviting her into the world I was imagining. I also included the pianist, and when I made eye contact with her, she would smile back. I have to say that this portion was so much fun and I genuinely enjoyed it.

Pointe Work was when things began to fall to pieces. If you guys watched my Mock Exam Vlog, you would know that the shoes I’ve been wearing for the past three years were discontinued, so I had to switch to a completely different brand and a completely different shoe.

I noticed my struggle at rises. Rises! The easiest exercise in the entire exam was one of my worst struggles. My left shoe would buckle backwards, forcing me from the tips of my toes to the ball of my foot. Keep in mind, this was only on my left foot and my left shoe. Continuing to the next and last barre exercise, I again had a tremendous struggle. I chose to keep my shoulders open, stomach as tight as possible, chin up, and smiled. I straightened my legs as hard as I could, feeling like my calves and hamstrings and quads were about to snap.

After barre, the examiner graciously asked what was wrong with my shoes. I told her what had happened, and she even (so kindly and compassionately, might I add) asked if I had another pair of pointe shoes in my dance bag. Very unfortunately, I did not, but the show must go on.

It was the first enchainment that I realized going onto pointe was even dangerous, as I rolled my ankle on the first echappé. I took a deep breath, and on my right leg which had a shoe still intact, I balanced for long, having to go from pointe on my right foot to demi pointe on my left. I had to show her that I could dance on pointe. I chose to do everything I could, and doing everything on demi pointe was not an option for me.

I knew third enchainment was going to be difficult. As the examiner graciously offered me long breaks, I turned to the back wall and whispered, “should I give up? Should I just concede and do everything on demi pointe? I can’t even turn properly.” I immediately heard “don’t give up.”

I’d like to say the ghost of Mr. Pegler appeared, smiling kindly and seemed to whisper, “It’s in the past.” I took a deep breath and looked up to the uncovered window. I happened to be in the perfect position to see four words: “Always Fight. Never Settle.” I chuckle quietly and decided that I would do everything I could to keep going. Third enchainment I knew was poorly done, as I couldn’t hop on pointe, releve, or fouette.

For the turning sequence, I went from pointe on my right foot to demi pointe on my left foot and continued the turns, and closing my legs together and gripping my muscles as hard as I could, I turned on one foot, giving the illusion that I was doing the correct step.

Oh, in case you’re wondering, it wasn’t the correct step. In fact, I’m not even sure if it’s an existing step.

I played with the music, giving the movements character and making the upper body simple, elegant, and dramatic when necessary. I did my best to be in time with the music, and I included the examiner and pianist in the performance. When the exam was finished, I walked out with confidence.

Walking out of the exam, I surprisingly didn’t feel like ripping off my shoes and throwing them as hard as I could across the studio. I was calm, collected, and although very disappointed, I felt somehow optimistic. Honestly though, I’m on a tipping point— I have a 50/50 chance of failing the exam. And honestly, I’m at peace with that.

I posted this on my private FB the next morning:

“I never do this, but I want to say how proud of myself I am. Yesterday’s exam did not quite go as planned, but something great came of it. I come from a family of fighters. We don’t give up. Yesterday, I realized what it means to be strong. It’s not hiding your feelings or sweeping them under a rug. It’s embracing them and learning that you don’t have to face them on your own. I love how I can whisper the name of Jesus and he will take the burden of frustration and negativity away. Even if I flunk the exam, I know that I’m not a failure, because I believe that I passed with flying colors by not letting the things the went wrong hinder me. I’m incredibly proud of myself. And I want to thank everyone who has been beside me in this process. ❤️”

I want to say thank you to all of you who read and watch my content, for those of you who message me and call me with words of encouragement. I’m so thankful for the support I get from everyone who views my content.

I also want to say thank you to my very patient parents and siblings for being so supportive through this process as well. Thank you to my Mom & Dad for all the driving you did (and still do!) for me, for supporting me and encouraging me and pushing me to become not only a better dancer or performer, but a better person in the process. Thank you to Eric & Jess & Zoey for coming over to watch the little siblings each week and also supporting, encouraging, and pushing me to be who I am destined to be! Thank you also to my mentor for praying for me constantly and for encouraging me to be a better version of myself. I love you family with all my heart.

And of course, special thank you to my teachers Ms. Jana, Ms. Andrea and Mr. Pegler for all the time and effort you have poured into me. I am truly honored to have such amazing people as mentors and inspirations and to constantly learn something from all of you.

Thank you to my friend Renée for constantly telling me to chill out and making me laugh whenever I’m with her. You inspire me so much and I’m so blessed to have you as one of my closest friends. Thanks for looking out for me! I missed sharing a towel with you 😉

And thank you to my LABA family for supporting me as well: the teachers & my friends. I love you all.

I know this was a really long blogpost, so if you’ve read the whole thing, leave me a comment telling me you have, because that would mean a whole ton to me.

Cheers to more adventures, cheers to the future.

Always Fight. Never Settle.

xoxo

Sung Eun Rose

Click here if you want to see last year’s examination Vlog!

I Made Foundation & Eyeshadow?!

I MADE FOUNDATION & EYESHADOWS?!

Motives Cosmetics Custom Blend Event Training

    Hey guys!

Today, you guys get to follow me today to Brea, California to learn about how to custom blend foundations, concealers, powders (including bronzing, blushers, and highlighters), and eye products!

I just want to give a quick shoutout to our amazing trainer and friend Lynda who was absolutely incredible! Not only is she gorgeous, but she is incredibly talented and her story is inspiring. I’m so thankful to have met her!

This event lasted all day, however it was incredibly worth it. I was so inspired by what I learned, and I’m thinking up some ideas and excited to start creating things! I got to learn how to properly match the colors for different skin tones and how to look for their undertones. I got to create my perfect foundation through this course, so I am so excited to be inviting you guys along in the journey.

I especially was excited to create my own custom cream eyeshadows! I wanted a blue-green eyeshadow to create a really fresh look for spring, and I got to create a color that was perfect for what I wanted. I created three other colors as well, all so intensely pigmented and surprisingly EXTREMELY long-wearing. Long-wearing as in, did not budge through a long 12-hour day of dance, school, traveling, etc.

There will be a video coming soon using these shadows and of course, my foundation. I can’t wait to show you guys!

I hope you guys enjoy the Vlog! Give this post a like and please share with your friends! Love you all, and I’ll see you Sunday!

xoxo

Sung Eun Rose

My Motives Site: www.motivescosmetics.com/sungeunrose

*If you would like a custom blend foundation/powders/eyeshadow/etc., you can email your inquiries to: sungeunrose@gmail.com

My Last Mock Exam… 02/27/17 A Life On Pointe Special

 

Hey guys!

How in the world have I made it here? That is the question I’ve been asking myself for the past month. I’ve been doing exams since I was nine years old, and I’m almost seventeen. Like… what?!

I’ve grown up. The night before my mock exam, I was looking back on footage from my Intermediate Foundation (a.k.a. years ago) on Facebook and I started crying. I was such a baby then, and now I’m a big girl… chasing hard after a childhood dream.

When I got into the LABA studio, I couldn’t hold back my joy. I was giggling and giddy and I just couldn’t believe that I was about to do this again. I have a lot of good memories in that particular room; from flashbacks of the first time I met Mr. Pegler and Ms. Andrea back in 2014, to past exams with my friend Renee, to late night and sometimes delirious partnering classes, I suddenly felt so overwhelmed with things to be thankful for.

I decided to just let go of all the doubts trying to creep into my head and I danced, feeling each and every movement. I can honestly say that I am proud of the way I performed that morning, even when I had some drama.

(haha, funny story… sort of)

My pointe shoes decided they wanted to die during my fouettes. When my mom went to order a new pair, I found out that my Russian Pointes are being discontinued. I got really frazzled and stressed out, which then effected the rest of my dancing. Once the session was over, we hopped in the car and went to the Dance Store.

Thanks to the lovely Jenny at the Dance Store and Mr. Pegler’s shoe choice, I found a brand new shoe that I love even more. I had my regular classes plus partnering class that night, so I was able to wear them and get a true feel of what dancing in them are like. They’re completely different from what I’m used to, but I love them.

I feel ready. Tomorrow, I’m taking the exam. I’ve never felt more nervous or excited for an exam in my life. I’m coming face to face with the dragon, and I know that I can take it down. Thanks to my teachers and their patience in training me, I know I am ready. Thanks to my friends, I know I am supported. Thanks to my family, I know I am loved.

And thanks to you, I know that I’m ready to kill this thing. I love you all, and thank you for all of the support you have shown to me in the last year. Keep me in your prayers and wish me good luck!

xoxo

Sung Eun Rose

Audition + Blog Photoshoot! 02/11/17

Hey guys!

Here’s a behind-the-scenes Vlog of my photoshoot I did just recently. I had so much fun and I can’t wait to show you all the incredible photos!!!

Special thanks to my teacher for letting me come so freaking early into the studio for our audition photos, and special thanks to my amazing, talented, incredible friend Michelle for taking these photos!

Go check out Michelle’s Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/juju_jubile/

xoxo

Sung Eun Rose

January Look Book + Vlog!

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Look 1: Cozy Chill Days

This is one of my favorite outfits. A nice sweater top is one of my favorite things to wear as far as winter is concerned. It’s a bit oversized with a chunky knit. I paired it with a maxi skirt and if I’m going out, I’ll pair it with a pair of simple ankle boots.

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Look 2: On-The-Go

This is a great look for running errands, light outdoor exercise, and chilling around the house. This is probably my most-worn outfit when I’m going to and from dance. This top is from American Eagle Apparel and is very soft with a nice sized cowl neck. There are two slits and the shirt is longer than the average tee. I paired this with some thick, warm leggings and my nike airs.

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Look 3: Workin’

This is an outfit I wear quite a bit to church and to other work-like events. To be honest, I do all my work from home or in my car rides (my mom drives), but I will wear this to go hang out with friends and other events that require me to “dress up” a bit. This coral top is a tank top from Forever 21 and the jeans are from Forever 21 as well. The cardigan is from American Eagle and is super warm and cozy. I paired this entire outfit with my “work bag” from Hush Puppies and these shoes that are well known and loved by Mix No. 6.

 

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Look 4: Casual & Fashionable

I love this outfit and I think this is perfect for working in the office as well. The statement piece is the jacket. From the front, it looks like a regular army green jacket, but from the back, there is a fun pattern and tassels and small bits of fringe to add a bit of personality. I paired it with a black button-up top from Express, these blue jeans from American Eagle Apparel, a watch by Style&Co., and these leather boots from Nine West.

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Look 5: Simple & Chic

This outfit is a bit different from the last two, and I wear this outfit to church and running errands all the time. I love the color of army green against my skin tone, and I paired it with a black skater skirt with black tights. My Bella Marie booties are comfy and much more practical than the stiletto heels seen above, and I love it with this outfit. It’s a simple, throw on look that you can style easily.

 

Hope you guys enjoyed this! Give it a like or two and I’ll see you next week!

xoxo

Sung Eun Rose

P.S. I Vlogged a behind-the-scenes on this photoshoot! Check it out right down below.

 

A Gift For You (Blogmas Day 25)

It’s our first christmas together… Wow…

I want to say thank you all so much for all of your support as I did Blogmas. It was incredibly exciting and stressful all together. I am so thankful for all of you.

I hope you have had and are having a very Merry Christmas!!! I love you all so much. See you in the New Year!!!

xoxo

Sung Eun Rose

SPECIAL ANNOUNCEMENTS

  1. There will be no Life On Pointe until the new year, and since my teacher’s baby is due very soon, this will effect the Life On Pointe Series. 
  2. I will not be posting until January 4th 2017 since I need a week to relax before the new year to spend time with family as well as plan out the next few months. 
  3. That’s it, Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!!!

Sweet 16

My 16 birthday was truly one of the best days of my life. I woke up that morning with so many text messages and messages on my social media. The highlight of birthday wishes were the videos people took the time to take.

For most of the day, I chilled out and watched netflix and read one of my new favorite books, Friend Me (by Cathy Hopkins). I also edited my birthday video, so I got a little bit of work done. My mom gave me the whole day off, which was awesome.

After a full day of barely doing anything, my older sister came over and helped decorate and set up. By the way, my dad planned this Cake & Ice Cream Night, so thanks Dad!

My best friend showed up early to help set up and he was a massive help. Others began trickling in, and soon enough, I had a full house of people. A lot of the people were from church and a couple were from outside church.

I was so blessed by the generosity of everyone who came to celebrate me. I promised myself I wouldn’t cry, but when my Dad announced that he put together a video of everyone who videoed their birthday wishes, I couldn’t help it.

Family and Friends (that includes you readers!), I just want to take this time to tell you guys thank you. You guys make life worth living, and I am so blessed to have such kind, loving, strong, and inspirational people in my life. You guys are just so amazing. You  support me in everything I do, and I am so grateful for the strong support system that I have.

Thank you Mom and Dad for raising me to become the young woman I am today. You guys support me in more ways than one, and I am so appreciative. You guys make my life more interesting, and I know that every day that comes, I can handle anything because I have been given a solid foundation given by the two most amazing, caring, loving, strong, and inspirational parents I could ever imagine. Thank you for pouring your hearts out to see me walk into my destiny. I love you guys so much.